10 Things Mama Never Told Me.

1 -  Mama never told me to fall for a 6 foot plus with beautiful brown skin, with a wavering heart and a trim "too damn loud".

2 -  Mama never told me that I would fall for the depth in his voice, the twinkle in his smile and the sadness in his eyes.

3 - Mama never told me about the joy I would get from loving my own. That it would be like 
getting a bag to pack in my insecurities, fears and doubts.

4 - Mama never told me about the drugs in the sheets and the dealer with his hands in between my thighs.

5 -  Mama never told me how a man once made her feel the night he forced his stick into her hole.

6 -  Mama never told me how she pinched, scratched and bit because her first time was against her will. That it would be 19 years again, before she would be bold enough to talk about her first time.

7 -  Mama never told me that my first time would hurt as much as it did. That it would be only worth doing with someone who respects and deserves my soul.

8 - Mama never told me how deep issues of the flesh really are.

9 - Mama never told me to close my eyes, take a deep breathe, hold tight and get ready for the ride.

10 - Mama never told me that the first time after my Apple has been bitten by a slithering snake, my eyes will be opened to a whole new world.

To Time.

You see lately I have been waking up in the middle of the night, trying to get a hold of time. If it was a person that I could converse with, I would say:

My dear old time, you have been in existence before there was nothing.
You have seen the birth of good and the growth of evil. 
You have seen Men & Women rise and fall.
You have conquered even the greatest of us, simply because they ran out of you.
You have watched fools disguised as wise men who pranced on their horses in the pursuit of power and wealth. 
You have seen the deepest and darkest of humanity. 
You know the secrets on what makes the human race.
You have seen empires been built and destroyed simply by greed. 
You have seen nature cradle and crush us. 
You have also seen manmade inventions designed for the good and the doom of us. 
You have seen our essence of being.
You have been our essence of being.
So whenever I wake up from a dream, with my chest pounding, sweat dripping and my soul craving for more than the mediocre. 

Please stay with me.Just like you stood guard so great Women could dream and manifest in the course of history.Stand guard of my dreams.Take care of me whenever I dangle hopelessly from the edge of life.Take care of me whenever I beg for more of you.